Tomorrows the dreaded day.... and yey he's out!

ok first up *does the happy dance* yey hes coming out of hospital! OMG! so happy! yeah I am... like I was shrieking when I found out and everyones looking at me like I gone mad. I was up all night cos of the heat and praying and todays a good day!!!!
I can handle family being sick, just not friends - that sucks more.

Yeah tomorrows the dreaded day - but I am not dreading it so much, thanks to 25 11/12 year olds - I swear I love them to bits. I am so glad I got all the sickness news when I was in this job, even if I had only been there a couple of weeks LOL... its so much easier to handle that sort of news being around kids all the time. However much I dont like some of the red tape in my job. I love being with them.

The reasons I guess why I am dreading tomorrow, most people forget well I guess thats a bonus rather than a problem... its my first bday without my dad around and having lost a lot of my family as a result. Its hard when they were only nice to you cos your technically realted, but now they can have nothing to do with us they are... It hurts when on both sides of my family my cousins are loved way more than me and my sister could ever be. I know we are a huge disappointment to them. My sister cos shes disabled, me cos I am fat ugly and not able to give them kids. But oh well what can ya do.

The kids have some special stuff planned for tomorrow.- How do I know this ? well the whole school seems to know its my birthday LOL!!! I wanna tell you what happened today but its so cute that every time I recount it I start crying - OK I will tell ya! LOL

me and ben came out of the room after lunch late, so we were on our way to italian and 2 of my class came running down saying there had been a room change and to stay there until someone came down and told them what the new room would be... ok so we waited there, and then a trainee teacher came and said we could go back up that the rooms had been swapped.
So went back up, went into the room - and they all started singing happy brithday to me in italian!!!! awwwwwwwwwwwwww it was so emotional! they had practised while me and ben were outside it was so lovely - Its times like that when anything else going wrong in life just sort of melts away.

Not having a party - cant really have them anymore- my 18th was a DISASTER!!! and I dont want my 21st to be no one showing..... plus I dont have the same friends anymore, and the ones I do have wouldnt be seen dead anywhere near my mum/dad/stepdad etcccccc. oh well, what can I do there...
Yey a movie I have been wanting to see forever comes out tomorrow on my birthday HOW AWESOME!!! mum booked tickets for the late night showing!! and we are going to an american burger bar before hand- cos we all know how much I love burgers. Anyways I guess I should stop talking, cos mums arriving from africa in a minute and the house is messy!

Bye diary :)! --x--